Grandma,

Oh, why so slow.

Most people don't know the only one that knows is me. Oh, how days fly by,

it was so hard to say that last "Good-Bye." One last kiss soft as swiss.

Warm hands touch my heart deep down inside, Soft skin made me not want to let you go.

When he called your name I gave you one Last Goodnight Kiss and told you I loved you so much and you always loved me and our caring family always cared for you to. I love you so muchh.

Grandma it seems so like yesterday but it was actually not. It has been 1 month and 28 days. I still go in your room and lay on the other side. I can't go an minute without thinking about you. I sit there and I stare in random places cause I'm picturing you and your cheerful self with a beautiful smile. Some days it seems like your coming down the hall and coming to watch TV One day I know that we will meet up again. So, Grandma promise me you'll be there whenever i ask for you to listen to me and have an conversation with you.

So Love You More Than Anything,

Marissa Knowles Your Grandaughter<3

For my Loving sister a Valentine message to you and all our loved ones. I'm sending you this valentine my way of saying I miss you and love you all everyday of my life and this little song goes out to you. For the beauty of the earth for the glory of the skies,for the love which from our birth over and around us lies: Lord of all to thee we raise this our hymn of greatful praise. For the joy of human love,brother sister parent child,friends on earth and friends and family above;for all gentle thoughts of love.

Happy Valentines Day to you and daddy. My Love for you can never die, My Longing for you will never subside, But to know that the love that created me is back together again I can not deny. So I hope your day tomorrow will find you in a mystical place ( I tried to download a beautiful picture today for you but our page is full But I kept it in my FB pics for you. It is of two turtle doves huddled together sitting on a branch extended over the waters edge with the sun slightly setting. This is how I picture you and daddy free as the turtle doves that soar till their hearts content Dear God I ask of you to please have the angels pick a big bunch of Royal Roses for my mom and dad since their so far away. Sprinkle them with all our love and wrap them with all our hugs and kiss. A Big Red Bow to show that we are and always will be wrapped together in our souls..

Love you and Still missing your loving daughter and son-inlaw

Brenda+Phil= Forever.

Though the time is passing it feels like time has stood still since the day the call came that god had walked you to the gates of heaven..

I still so much feel the need to pick up the phone to call you when I need to talk about just anything, the snow we have it is so beautiful looking from the inside out. The Blue spruce pine tree daddy planted for you, It looks like a picture perfect post-card with the snow on it. Phils adventures and superbowl, nascar season ready to start. Oh how I miss your voice it was all I had!

The memories is all I have and I will cherish every last one, time and life were not to fare to us for what ever reason but the time we did have was worth more then any monetary objects could be worth.

My family is all doing good and baby Zack is almost here, I hope you will be there with us when he is born.. They all have alittle bit of you and daddy in them I see it all the time. Those are the gifts that mean the most to me.. You may be gone for awhile but your in my children every day.

While time is only a moment and a moment is only time, its what was done with it that matters the most and I know you did what was best and the moments you did give will have to get us through the rest of time till we come together again. But I still wish we would of had more time.. Though the memories I have will always be a precious gift I will cherish for the rest of this life time..

I still cry out for you and daddy and I guess I always will I wanted a life time but got only half but if that is all god felt I need then the reasons are still to come and I will try to stay strong. I know that you and daddy are with me more now then ever before because your everywhere,when ever and as much as you want to be now..No obsticals are in your way. I don't have a day where I see or hear something that reminds me of the two of you and I hope that never ends for my memories are all I have and I need till we come together again.. Till next time I write you, my tears will wash the pain away..XOXOXO Brenda.

If you are reading this my momma is in heaven. I sure wish i could give her one more kiss. I am laying her down and she is up in heaven with dad. They are both are watching over us.

So I lay her down in the open field out on the edge of town.I know her soul is where momma always wanted to be.

So if you are reading this she is already home.

She wont be there to see her grandchildern grow up. But I hope they fight like her and stand up for the innocent and weak.

I will never regret following in my dad shoes.

Just remember she is in no pain and in a better place where the angels are singing with dad Amazing Grace. They both will watch over us.

The gate is open walk on in he'll take care of you and he'll be next to you. As you watch over us above. So don't be shy and say Hi.cause I"ll know your there cause you never left me. Also you touch my heart cause you watch me so peacefully with the lord above!

such a beautiful face that has left us.You will always be remembered as a cheerful and happy person. You was caring to me and the family. I miss you so dearly and hurts me deep down but its a happy and cheerful pain. love marissa

mom

We have had a busy week . It has been lots of downs but very few ups.As i walk past something today is was a poem that Marissa had wrote that made me think of so many strength's they the kids give me.

Grandma, your beautiful face.

Its in a beautiful place.

When I look upon the sky it stretches for miles and miles,

Heaven is a bright ans shiny place above.

I look above!

When I look above I think of you in so many ways.

My dear Grandma, in such a safe place and it is called heaven.

I will always love you and miss you . Marissa

Grandma I miss you so much. I had a dream about you that I wish was real. I have been going threw alot,and its very hard. I wish i could just hold your hand one more time,and give you a kiss. There were so many times you had me laugh that I will never forget. No matter what you will always stay in my heart and mind. Ever sense you had left Ive had so much anger in me it hurts my heart, because I know that I cant go in your room and talk to you. Im so happy that your resting in peace,and that i got to spend every single day with you. When you left I was crying of sadness but of also happiness knowing that your out of pain from things that have happened. Every night before I go to bed I look at my picture album of you and family all together. Im so happy that I had you as my Grandma because nobody else could be better then what you were to me. When ever I play basketball I think of you and it makes me do good and I try winning for you. You had always told me that I should try winning just for you and if I didnt win its ok, because at least I had tryed my best. I wish you were here right now because I have so many things I want to talk to you about,because I know that you will listen to every word I would say. You would always help with the problems I had at school,friends,and even boyfriends. You have taught me so many things that I will remember. You had always told me to "keep moving forward and dont let anybody tell you what to do." When I saw your face I smiled because you brung so much beauty and laughter to us all. I love you so much I wont ever forget you. With all my love your grandaughter Ashley <3

Grandma, i miss you so much everythings not the same. I look in your empty room and think of you and your beautiful smile that makes me wanna cry cause it's so beautiful. Grandma everyone tells me it'll be alright but i know deep down inside that it won't be. Missing you is like missing a piece of me. Memories are all we have now but to me i imagine you and i look up and think of how grateful i am to have had you be my only Grandma that i will ever have. The memories i have are of you being so happy and being funny like your one little personality. At times i just sit there and think "Hey, i feel like my Grandma's sitting right next to me and telling me that she's here Most of the times i look around and i know I'm not the same. But, with you here I'm so much like your Little Scorpion. Yes Grandma we were the 3 Scorpio's Me,You,and Brittiney. I look back on days that we sat together and had our laughs together. I remember a time when i walked out of your room and then i hear a word "Hey KID come back i walked in and told you i was Marissa you looked at me and said,"well whatever you are get me a glass of water I walked away laughing cause i am a kid I'm your kid. I have to be honest me myself I'm softhearted Grandma you mean everything in the world to me there's always going to be a spot in my heart for you that will never be replaced. It's strange but to me when i sleep i feel so safe and secure and I'm not so scared in my room anymore cause i know that your always going to be right next to me and in my heart.

LOVE TRULY YOUR, Scorpio&"KID" Marissa Knowles,<333

Dear Nene , I want you to know today has been one month and two days since you left me on your heavenly vacation. Cindy and I went and put beautiful flowers on your grave today said a prayer for you and Roy and asked the Lord to have you both watch over all of us. We miss you, I miss you so bad. I look at your picture everyday and look at that cute smile you have on your face and it comforts me knowing you loved me and now your my Angel. I will never forget you. I love you. Your sissy Lorie.

To my loving sister. What cancer cannot Cancer is so limited, It cannot cripple love, It cannot shatter hope, It cannot currode faith, It cannot kill friendship, It cannot suppress memories It cannot silence courage, It cannot invade the soul, It cannot steal eternal life , it cannot conquer the spirt and it can never change the love I have in my heart and soul for you. I love and miss you Nene. Lorie

Mom

It hard knowing that it has been a month. We are so glad that we spent so much time with you. Having that time and hugging you and kissing you all the time . You always knew home much you was loved and still be loved. Being able to know that you felt so good for your last bday. The pictures that we made and took over the past two years where perfect. We all are so blessed and thankful and could not ask for a better mom and grandma to have been a huge part of our lifes. love you Ca. family.

been a month since we said good bye with out one last kiss from u. . .We miss u more then u could have ever known , thinking about our times we spent together and the last time we talked and said our good byes. . .we will always remember our last good bye and will miss u and think about u forever. . forever loved in indiana

mom

The weekend is here and those were the days you felt the best. I miss you so much I fell lost alot with you not being here with us.When you left us not only did the kids lose there grandma we lost our mom best friend. I could talk to you alot about things.Some times can you give me a sign that you are watching over us. When god made angels we know he made a perfect one and that was you.Bless us and your grandchildern . love you lots

mom

I know you are watching over us .Over the weekend we hung the big picture of you is so beautiful you would love it.we all miss you so much. I hope you and daddy are having fun and keep telling the angels to watch over us. We love you and will always be in our hearts.

Mom,

These past few weeks have been so hard without you here. We miss you so much.The picture of you is up on the wall so we can see you everyday.Boy the kids miss you so much . Your grand daughters are having such a hard time with out you.I know they say it is going to better but I dont know if that will ever happen. We love you so much.

Dearest Carol... Although I did not know you I certainly have been able to feel your spirit through your wonderful daughter, Cindy. You did good girl. I can only conclude that she is a reflection of who you and your husband were. She is kind, sensitive, insightful, caring, fair, good-hearted, and I could go on and on, but you get the picture. Cindy SOOOOO loves you. I am sure that the memories of you and your time together will keep her warm when she is feeling the cold without your arms around her. I am so impressed by the passion in her towards you and your family. I imagine that your family get-togethers were full of laughter, hugs and kisses. You have raised your daughter to be a strong and successful woman, all from watching you I am sure. Rest in peace, Carol, and know that your spirit lives on in each and every fiber of Cindy's being. Walk silently by her side and guide her through her darkest times and send sunshine for her victories. Your "light" was surely too bright to ever dim. Your family will know that the morning light represents your bright passion for life, and when the night falls, as they lay their heads to rest, you will blanket them with memories and thoughts of your kisses that will remain forever on their lips. Be at peace knowing you accomplished what many dream...a family who loved you and loves each other. Blessings dear one, Karen D. Anderson

I see the countless trees around the world below with tiny lights like heavens stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tears for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,

but the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring, for it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart, But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.

So be happy for me dear one's you know I hold you dear and be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above, I sent you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold. It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my father said to do, for I can't count the blessings or love he has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away your tears, Remember I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED

Day by day night by night we will pray with our heads full of hope, she will be here no matter what we will find a cure even if it takes a week or a few days. She will be here with us

forever and always!

Even you should pray with your head full of hope and we will accomplish finding the cure. Just know that no matter what happens she will overcome this and we will find a cure, so

"step up and find a cure."

My Grandma Carol meant everything in the world to me, she was the best Grandma that anyone could of asked for. When I was down she found a way to make me laugh and to cheer me up I have the best memories of her and these memories I will cherish forever!

Memories are all that we have now and for everyone that knew her were blessed by the "Heavenly Father" to have known her because to know her was to be loved.

We Cant Believe Your Gone

Mom our sadness knows no end

We cant believe your gone.

We're grieving for you every day

Its hard to carry on.

You were always there to support and care

When we needed a true friend,

How we'll ever do without our mom

We cannot comprehend.

You were our teacher, and our guide

Our mom so good and strong

Your example will sustain us now,

And last our whole lives long.

We're trying to communicate

We hope that you can hear

Expressing what we feel for you

Helps us feel you're near.

Our memories of the times we had

Help the pain to go away

But mom our lives wont be the same

We'll miss you every day.

A part of us went with you

You left a gap to big to fill

You're our mother and our hero

We love you and we always will.

"In Memory Of Our Mother Carol"

You were a precious gift from God above

So much beauty, grace and love.

You touched our hearts in so many ways

Your smile so bright even on bad days.

You heard God's whisper calling you home,

You didn't want to go and leave us alone.

You loved us so much you held on tight

Till all the strength was gone and you could no longer fight.

He had called you twice before

You knew you couldn't make him wait anymore

So you gave your hand to God and slowly drifted away

Knowing that with our love we will be together again some day.

When god thought about the perfect mother-inlaw, he must of been thinking of Carol Marie Knowles. For she was truely the best mother-inlaw anyone could ever ask for.

From the first time I ever met her I knew she was something very special,for she was not judgemental and accepted you for the individual that you are.

She was very family orieanted and loved everyone equally no matter how differant they could be. I can see alittle bit of Carol Marie in each and every family member that I have met.

One of my most fondest memories was when I drove her and my wife Brenda up one of the fire roads on the mountain and spotted a bear standing on his hind legs getting apples by the road. She was so amazed that she had lived in California most of her life and had never seen a wild bear, especially so close to her home. We didn't know whether to be scared or amazed, so we sat there and laughed about it...

My condoulances goes out to each and every family member, for I know their lose and grief is great. Although we could not be there at the end our thoughts and prayers was always with you.

Sure going to miss our conversations on the phone. Traveling vicariously across the country side with me enjoying what we have seen. My trip to caly was one of the most memorable events in my life, though I did not know that would be the last memories I would have of you. Didn't ever want to think of saying good-by. Even though I didn't get the chance to say good-by I sure am going to miss you. I Love You..

The time has come to let you go we won't weep no tears of sorrow but tears of joy rejoicing in knowing your in the arms of our lord and daddy. No pain to bare no more.

Your journey here with us was not nearly long enough but your rewards of honor you left behind will shine brightly for malliniums to come. Your grandchildren and greatgrand children are shining examples of that. They will over come and not settle for anything less then the best, I'm proud to of been your 1st. born child and the teachings you taught, and the friendship you showed is what made me who I am.

I will forever be thankful for the time I was allowed to take care of you during your treatments of Lab tests,radiation,chemo, Your fight,bravery and determination to over come showed me your strenght,love and loyalty to our family to stay with us no matter your sacrifice.

I know you have made it to daddy by now for you learned quickley how to bask in the glory and showed us sunday night that you will always be near to listen and guide and to protect us for the rest of our eternal life. Thanks for the sweet smells you wrapped around Phil and I, it was intoxicating and overwhelming till we realized it was you and then we knew that you was telling us you were good now and will protect and guide us throught the rest of our lives.

Love you momma. xoxo for you and dad.

I feel so blessed to have been a part of Carol's life, she impacted everyone's life that knew her, in a good and positive way, and I was no different. She was more of a mother then a mother in law to me, she and Roy did there very best to teach me how to be a man. A lot of who I am this very day is because of what Carol and Roy Knowles instilled in me so many years ago, it took a while the seeds that they planted did take root. Thank you Carol for being part of my life and for as long as I live you live, with in me, you will always have a place in my heart. forever yours, Jim

You have overcame this battle and now at peace with Grandpa and all the other loved ones.... I love you grandma there will always be a special place in my heart for you, with so many memories to remain for our lifetime. Rest In Peace Love, Katie & Jordie

The day has come to lay you with dad, Oh how I wish we could all be there to walk this last walk with you mother dear. I know you said not to waste no money for you won't be there. Just a small no frilles graveside affair, but momma you deserved all the bells and whistles and gunman's salute, to honor and praise for your years of determination,compassion and understanding at what was needed by each and everyone of your childrens need. Thank you for your strenght to stand alone. For I today will to stand alone, but I know that is only what it appears. For Daddy and you are with me today and always. So I pick up a handful of gods green earth and scatter the dirt to return you too the earth you once came. God Bless you mother dear and hold you. Till we rejoice in our joining again. Love and sweet tears your daughter Brenda

Aunt Carol, u will be deeply missed and we will forever keep you in our hearts.May the Dear Lord take u in his wings so u will have eternal life."WE LOVE YOU" May you Rest In Peace!

We are so sorry for your loss and extend heartfelt sympathies to all of Carol's family. Just remember - we do not lose those we love. They die, but the love we shared can never be destroyed or lost. Our loved ones are still and always will be a part of us - yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever. We will be thinking of you with heavy hearts - Bill & Debi Cornish

In Loving memory of my sister Carol. Steve Wally and I will always love and miss you.You were the best sister anyone could ask for. Sweet,Kind and a heart of gold. You were my mom my sister and friend.Please Jesus keep her safe in your arms. We will meet again someday. I love You Nene

we are so sorry for your loss.our condolences to you cindy and your family.May God give you strength,my prayers are always with you all.We are here for you always. love pervin

Passing time with disregard for today or any presentation for the next moment.

brong in with nothing but a dream of a life with out the persecution of what is knowing of the truth and nothing more.

Say we live for today, may we die for tomorrow, say we take ones last breath and let ones sorrow.

Every second is your last you wont even see, your mind is empty with a thought never known.

Your soul at still your body to lay, in the core of it all is the center of today.

Suns will fall and some may raise, moons will shine behind clouds they lay, rain may fall all through the day, soak the ground where love ones lay...

D.A.M

God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around you & whispered come with me. With tearful eyes we watched and saw you pass away. Although we love you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke our hearts to prove to us he only takes the best.

From the time I was a little girl I wanted to be just like my Mother. She had such a loving and gentle way about her. She was my nurturer and protector. I never had to wonder how much my Mother loved me she told me and showed me often it was never a question in my mind. As I got older she became not only my Mother but my best friend. When I became a Mother myself she was there to help me with my daughter and I am so proud of the bond that the three of us have its a bond that is unbreakable. My Mother was such a strong woman she fought a long battle against Cancer but even when they said that life expectancy was 2 months she never gave up her fight. Mama entered eternal life 7 months to the day we found out about the brain cancer. She continued to take every day one day at a time. She had such personality and awnryness that made her the Mother that we love so dearly. Mama I love you more than any words can express. I am so blessed that God chose you to be my Mother, there is no better Mother than you were. I will miss you everyday of my life. I want to thank Jennifer and Roy for taking such good care of Mama since my Dads passing, and especially to Jennifer for caring for my Mama on a daily basis and being there to make sure she received all of her treatments as needed. And to my Sister Terry that left her family on a couple occassions to come and help care for our Mother. I am eternally grateful to be part of such a great and loving family.

We are going to miss u and u will always be in our hearts and we will never forget our times together and the moments we shared. We store them in our hearts and remember that u r with god now and he has taken u home to be apart of his family but in the end u will always be our grandmother and u will always b remembered and loved. I will never forget u grandma and i love u and your grandchildren will always know how much u meant to this family and how u held us all together. I will always love u........... love your Indiana boy

Roy, Cindy, Terri and Brenda - We are deeply sorry to hear about Aunt Carol. So sorry we are not able to be there with all of you during this time. We truly know what you are going though. Always remember "Gone but Never Forgotten Aunt Carol, Uncle Roy, Aunt Marilyn and Uncle George are all together again.

I am so sorry for your loss, Know she is not suffering anymore, and feel comfort knowing she is setting at the right side of God, and she is with Roy once again. My prayers are always with you all

My condolences to you Cindy and your family. May God give you strength in this difficult time. With all my love, Helen.

Terry & Katie, I am so sorry for your loss. You guys now have a guardian angel above that will be with you forever. If there is anything you guys need, do not hesitate to ask. Love you guys, Stacci

We little knew that day,

God was going to call your name.

In life we loved you dearly,

In death, we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you.

You did not go alone.

For part of us went with you,

The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,

Your love is still our guide.

And although we cannot see you,

You are always at our side.

Our Family chain is broken,

And nothing seems the same,

But as God calls us one by one,

The chain will link again.

Aunt Carol, Though this is a painful time for those of us still here having to move forward without you, we know you have been taken home to the Lord with many others of our family. And we are glad you're no longer suffering. I love you. Please kiss my daddy for me and tell him I love him! To the family, It's so hard to lose someone you have loved and cared for during good and trying times. My deepest sympathy to all of you, and my sincerest thanks for taking such good care of her during this awful illness. It's never easy to watch and still keep trying to live while you're losing someone and feel so helpless. You all did such a great job, let me restate that, you showed so much love and strength. May you all be blessed with knowing how wonderful you are, and how Aunt Carol is smiling down on you now knowing how much you all fought for her and loved her. Love to you all. Wish I could be there with you Thursday, but know my mind and spirit will be with you. Love, Michelle

Carol, first I just want to say I only got to spend 1 week with you and you make it pleasant for me, and I'm glad to have met you, I know you are with our Father and your husband and loved ones, and no more cancer and no more pain. If it wasn't for Jenn, I wouldnt have had the pleasure to meet you, you are missed and loved. May you R.I.P Love, Virginia Bernard Stockbridge, Ga.

So Sorry to hear of your loss you are all in my heart and prayers!!! She will be greatly missed. I will be thinkin of all of you!!!!!!!!

you will be sadly missed wish i could have came to california to see you but i did see you when you were home last and had alot of fun with you i love you like a second mom i will always have my memories of you and all of your family. You are no longer in pain and have been sent to be with Roy and you two will fly together to watch over your remaning children and grandchildren. Rest in peace Carol until we all meet again Love you Lady................My prayers are with the family and all her friends love you all